Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in lucreaturedoom's LiveJournal:

Thursday, May 11th, 2006
4:29 pm	I'm loving me today I'm loving me today because if I dont do it no bugger else will. I'm loving me because I deserve to be pampered and spoiled. I'm loving me and I smell sweet as candy (that's LUSH again!) This time tomorrow, I'm quitting. This time tomorrow, it doesn't matter what anybody thinks. Because this time tomorrow, I'm getting the hell outta here! Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Diary Of Dreams: Nigredo (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
7:56 pm	hangover from hell In spite of all that I drank last night, I never did manage to get pissed. However, I woke with this stonking hangover that has raged on all day long. I've been lolling on the settee all day waiting for the room to stop spinning. I knew that drinking wasn't the solution, but I did think it'd make me feel a little bit better at the time. I really am an idiot. Right now, I'm tentatively eating a fruit slumpy and hoping the pinapple and ginger is going to soothe me. I half thought I'd put some rum in it but that mightn't have been such a sensible thing to do after all. Booze isn't coming to the rescue this time. I need to start looking after me, and not making me worse. NO more stupid relationships either. On a cheerier note, I finally dyed my jeans yesterday and they look really neat. That's something to be happy about. Now I'm just going to take it easy and watch a movie to cheer me up. Think I'll unplug the phone so I cant be harrassed. Then I think I'll go to bed: without the booze and try to sleep this off. Maybe everything will be sweet and dandy tomorrow? Maybe I'll develop an incurable nervous tick and sit ticking all day? Something's got to give. I wonder what. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Ozric Tentacles (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
7:15 pm	Hideous ex, and the joy of Japan! I saw my hideous ex on a bus today. I cant believe I used to date THAT! He didn't recognise me, thankfully, but just looking at his stupid sickening face reminded me of exactly why I've made the choices I have, and chased the classy ladies forever and a day. It's time I got me a new one though. A nice well behaved one though. I've put up with the bitch of the apocalypse. Wicked siren that she was. I'm certain I couldn't go back to spending any amount of time with men now. I've had enough of their dreadful jokes and nasty bodily functions. I think I was born this way and I must have tried to kid myself into thinking that I could be a normal girly girl, and date normal manly men. Ugh! On a happier note: I LOVE Japan! The country where farts are highly fetishized objects and one can buy used undies in vending machines in toilets! And the girls are soooo cute and cuddly - I WANT one of my own. I wish I could be there all the time! I guess I could take my high fibre diet over there and get rich farting for a living, and make my own fart movie, and eat seafood to my heart's content. That'd be my idea of HEAVEN. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Flowing Tears (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
3:41 pm	Perfect Day? It's beautiful. The sun is shining and the sky is clear and it quite brightens my black little heart. The perfect day for an ice cream I think, but nowhere round here sell soya ice. Just have to eat friut sorbet instead. Funny thing that somebody like myself should enjoy the sunshine, and actively want to get out there in it. Not that I'd suffer a tan for anybody, but it's really so uplifting after the long and miserable winter we've endured. It's so bright that my scorpion's glowing. They do that. They convert the UV rays into a lovely flouro thing in their armour, and they turn bright blue. It's very pretty. I wish I could do that - glow under UV light. All it does is show off my sqillions of freckles. I dont think anybody notices though, because it's the scorpion round my neck that gets all the attention. Well, I'm off out there to wander. I'm sure the cemetry will be perfectly enchanting on a day like today. I ought to take a picnic really. That'd go down a treat wouldn't it? Got my 'goth juice' and some salmon and marmalade sarnies (no, I'm not pregnant, I just eat crazy food!) some highly ripe and messy mangoes, all in a nice little wiccy basket. Think I'll phone a freind and lure them out. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Nine Inch Nails: Head Like A Hole (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
11:57 am	A stereotypical uniform? The Godbotherers are pestering me again. They knock on my door and tell me in great depth and detail what's going to happen to my soul if I dont repent my wicked ways. This, I tollerate reasonably well: it's their generalising and social/religious stereotyping that I'm not dealing so graciously with. I cant understand their way of 'assumpting' things that just ain't true, and cant be backed with 'Isn't that what all you young people think is hip and trendy these days?' The latest one they've sent out has concluded that I must be a Satanist. An accusation I am not at all pleased about. I think this idea was formulated in his tiny narrow mind because I happened to be wearing black. What about nuns then? Do they not also wear black? And, just for the record, I happen to know some perfectly nice Satanists who DONT wear black. Books judging books by their covers right? Well, if we're generalising, and everyone wearing black favours the red guy, then what's the Godbotherers uniform? It seems to me that a worrying percentage of them wear sandals (with socks at the same time!) Comfortable trousers (which are always brown) and hideous knitted jumpers. They tend to sport awful badges that state things like: 'Jesus Loves YOU' and 'Jesus Bled For You' etc. AND, they all seem to have this strange glazed looked about them. I reckon thats the brainwashing, but I'm not sure. ...And you try telling them about the glaring inconsistancies in their book and they go all sort of quiet and make excuses to leave. They especially dont like it when you call them a 'modern cult' and state in a proud and happy voice that your beliefs predate theirs by thousands of years! When happy little heathens danced the world over and rejoiced in it's delight - instead of subduing it and forcing dominion over it. Religious rant over. The Gods be praised! Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: Lacuna Coil (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
11:25 am	normality in dullsville Lucreaturedoom is feeling better, and is prepared to step back out into society and start chucking her arse around! The first thing I did when the shops opened was to buy as much fruit as I could carry, and hurry home with it. It's a joy to be eating real food again. Munchy crunchy apples. I'm so glad that religious bean fest is over. I didn't go to church - I dont think they'd let me in: "Woah, YOU! You strayed the flock a long time ago! Get out of our fold! There's nothing in here for YOU!" and I'd just smile and say: "Why thankyou. You're ever so kind for not trying to steal my soul and assimilate it with the others. While you're being reasonable, could you please see fit to do away with christmas? I think we've suffered enough." That'd make my year getting rid of that festive poop. It'd be perfect. But it's all too comercial, and just one great money making scam. I say we go back to dancing naked round fires, drinking mead, and doing orgies. We were happier in those times. And what harm would the odd sacrifice really do? I reckon we could use up some of the chav scum and give them as gifts to the gods. Although, having said that, it'd probably invoke some kind of plague just for the insult. It'd have to be virgins then: anybody know where we could find virgins? heheheeheeeheee, come to Lucreature, good little church goers.... Well, enough of this heresy, it's time I made myself useless. I got a list of really monotonous stuff to be keeping me out of trouble: *Dye jeans (grey just doesn't cut it) *Dye lashes, and eyebrows *Copy some music for friends down the country *Make some more pickles *Make apt for new tattoo *Look for new NIN remixes *Tidy bombsite kitchen! Current Mood: crazy Current Music: NIN: With Teeth (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 17th, 2006
2:09 pm	stupid religious holiday bollocks = beans beans beans Does anybody else find this immensely irritating? I dont understand why they have to close all the shops just for some stupid religious holiday. My beliefs dont cause the shops to be closed from Friday until Tuesday, and mean that people have to starve in those days between. How idiotic that we're still doing this. This has been the longest and most infuriating weekend I've endured in months. I cant find any of the things that I need in a 'corner-shop' and I'm not buying canned crap. Ahhhh. I have no bread. No soy milk. No fresh fruit. No veggies. AND I'm sick unto death of boiling beans. I know there's a multitude of beans, but they're pretty dull without the essential fresh produce. And using seasoning just isn't enough. There's a limit to how many bean meals one can be forced to make do with: chilli beans.... curry beans.... boring bloody beans! I guess I must continue with the beans until tomorrow, and the shops resume some sense of normality. I ought to get into the nearest supermarket and make them suffer for my poor ravaged bowels. Better still: I should go to church and let them have it! Just imagine what the last four days of nonestop beans has done to me!? I think it'll be a while before I dare eat them again! CONCLUSION: religious holidays must be abolished, or else I shall be forced to take my stink to confession. 'Father forgive me. It's been four days since my last none-bean meal, and an entire host of demons are now residing in my bowel. How many Hail Mary's to absolve my arse?' Current Mood: bloated Current Music: Bauhaus (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 13th, 2006
7:04 am	the mundane I've been trauling through other people's journals trying to get a feel for the thing. It seems to me just a little 'mundane'. I need to work out how to do a poll. I think I have some questions I'd like express, and I'd like some opinions back. Just what exactly is it all about? Yesterday was so utterly boring that the highlight of my day was buying myself a heart: yes, a cute little purple heart of stone. I've been creating a heart repair kit, and I'd like to know what I should think about including in it. Of course I have the little red and black heart shaped box - I just want to know what the repair kit should consist of. Is it important to include lists of stuff to do? I just thought that mine would be so entirely boring that people reading it, might just lose the will to live. Perhaps I should do a little list, and see what the general opinion is regarding my daily doings? Here it is then: *Dye roots (cant go out with roots showing, can we?) *Paint wardrobe: it needs a paintjob - it ought to be black right? *Pester ex-girlfriend about returning my stuff *Make Turkish salad *Finish reading 'Modern Druidism' *Fill up bath and wallow for a few hours *Yawn, and off to bed I suppose Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: The Merry Thoughts (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
10:27 am	another dull day I'm new to all this - virginal if you like. Here we go: this is my life... it's dull, it's boring and it's sadder than ever today of all days. The sun is shining outside, but I feel colder than ever inside. Why I was ever convinced to keep a journal of my misery I dont know. It's not as though anything ever really happens anyway. And I imagine that there must be millions of people writing in theirs, and having all manner of wonderful and exciting joy to contend with? People with friends no doubt... maybe even real live friends! Is this supposed to be some form of exhibitionism? Look at my life and post your comments? Somebody tell me what this is all about. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: The Smiths (2 Comments |Comment on this)